" In sixth months you won’t remember waking up beside me or my nails on your back but in sixth months I’ll still be struggling to forget your laugh and what it felt like to hold you. "
" You think ‘Okay, I get it, I’m prepared for the worst,’ but you hold out that small hope, see, and that’s what fucks you up. That’s what kills you. "
"

I can’t promise that I’ll never hurt you or make you angry. In fact, I can tell you now that there will be times where I’m stubborn or distant and you’ll find it incredibly hard to deal with me.

But once I’m yours, I’m yours and I’ll never take you for granted. I know how much thought you put into the nice things you do and say and I’ll appreciate all of it. I’ll make you food at 3 am because, unlike you, I am an excellent cook. I’ll force you into taking an insufferable amount of pictures so I can show everyone how gorgeous you are. I’ll make you stupid mix CD’s filled with songs that remind me of you just because I can.

So no, I won’t be easy to love and I’ll probably drive you crazy. But I promise that I’ll fight very hard for a spot in your life.

"
" Listen,
if you’re going to leave, that’s fine.
and I know you promised you wouldn’t
seven months ago while I was crying
into your neck but I also know that
sometimes it rains even when it’s not
supposed to and sometimes boys
kiss girls they shouldn’t and we tear
flowers out of the ground just to watch
them die and things change,
so I understand if you’re done,
but please, when you’re packing all your
old sweaters and books, don’t forget
to take all your three AM phone calls,
and photographs where we’re smiling
so wide it looks like we’ve never known
that feeling in the pit of your stomach
when someone screams “I don’t love you
anymore.”
Take back every kiss, every night you
fell asleep next to me, every poem I
wrote you, every song you sang to
me, every “I love you more fight,”
every shock I felt in my skin when
you brushed against me.
I was never scared of ghosts until you
left but now I see you everywhere and
god if you’re going to kill me please
just do it quickly because I see you
in everything and it’s making it hard
to breathe "
" I fucking hated what you were doing to me. But more than that, I hate that you knew you were doing it. And that I was letting you. "
" Du musst endlich lernen, dass dir manche Menschen einfach nicht gut tun. Und wenn du es merkst dann lass sie los. Versuch doch nicht immer abzuwarten bis sich irgendwas ändert. Du tust dir nur selbst damit weh. "
" Im not addicted to alcohol or drugs, im addicted to escaping reality. "